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Hurt, healing, emotions.. They all come in waves. There’s not one person who can just recover from a trauma and be totally okay the next minute or day. Wounds take time to heal, and so do people. 

But in times of difficulty, there’s at least some consolation in knowing Chrissy is slowly blending in with reality. She just penned a heartfelt letter about her whole journey of losing her third child, Jack and it’s highs and lows made us tear a little. 

You can read her full letter here. 

In case you haven’t been following her story, Chrissy and husband John Legend are one quirky couple who find happiness in sharing their life with the world. So of course, everyone rejoiced when they learned about the author’s third pregnancy. However, things took a turn for Chrissy when she suffered terrible bleeding and couldn’t save the child they lovingly called Jack. 

 

 

 

 

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We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before. We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough. . . We never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, just before we leave the hospital. But we, for some reason, had started to call this little guy in my belly Jack. So he will always be Jack to us. Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever. . . To our Jack - I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you. . . Thank you to everyone who has been sending us positive energy, thoughts and prayers. We feel all of your love and truly appreciate you. . . We are so grateful for the life we have, for our wonderful babies Luna and Miles, for all the amazing things we’ve been able to experience. But everyday can’t be full of sunshine. On this darkest of days, we will grieve, we will cry our eyes out. But we will hug and love each other harder and get through it.

A post shared by chrissy teigen (@chrissyteigen) on Sep 30, 2020 at 8:58pm PDT

After being completely quiet on social media for about a month, she explained in her letter why she needed that time and what she did during it. She also explained why she felt sharing this story with everyone is important. 

We think it’s heroic to share such a personal story for everyone out there who are probably fighting silent battles, and the Twitterverse thinks the same as well. 

Those photos were for me. I needed them. In my darkest hours, I needed to know I wasn't alone. That I wasn't the first to suffer this. That I would survive. Thank you.

— Laury Pflaum (@Pflaumster) October 27, 2020

Thank you for sharing such a personal, painful experience. You are SO brave.

— Nancy B. (@GlassJunkie98) October 27, 2020

From a Mom of 1 who had 4 miscarriages. My first was at the age of 28. Those words are so moving. You are such a beautiful person. Wish you much love. ❤❤

— 🇨🇦Cathy QB🏳️‍🌈 (@cathy_qb) October 27, 2020

From a Mom of 1 who had 4 miscarriages. My first was at the age of 28. Those words are so moving. You are such a beautiful person. Wish you much love. ❤❤

— 🇨🇦Cathy QB🏳️‍🌈 (@cathy_qb) October 27, 2020

I have been in the same place as you since 9th of August when I had to say my goodbyes to my little girl. thank you for giving us a voice. I love how you deal with it and how calm you make it sound. even the panic and the grief attacks. it is all so familiar.

— Auntie Fa مي زيداني (@ZeidaniYufanyi) October 27, 2020

Dear Chrissy, you don’t know me. You don’t know a lot of us fellow mothers who have had our own heart-shredding experiences of loss and how grief can live within a family that has so much joy.

And yet still, despite not knowing us, you *saw* so many of us. Thank you. pic.twitter.com/u2Jn34wtIk

— The Grateful Deadly (@TetyanaWrites) October 27, 2020

Thank you for this, Chrissy, for your vulnerability, for sharing the wholeness of this experience. I am ugly crying but feeling so much love from this. It’s kinda a love letter to being even when it’s so so hard.

— ty stiklorius (@tystiklorius) October 27, 2020

I teared up reading your story b/c it's the story for many of us.💔The part about being happy for your pregnant friends...Yes. We can grieve our own loss while celebrating others' joy. I am happy to hear that you are healing and that you are doing this all your way. Thank you.

— Jae-Ha Kim 김재하 (@GoAwayWithJae) October 27, 2020

We hope you feel better, Chrissy and John. It’s not going to be all rainbows and sunshine moving forward, but we hope you trust that it will be. 

By: Piravina Ragunathan